Life's a game & Love is the prize

Back when we were still kids, doing chores was our game in life, and toys were the prize. As time goes by, we grew by age and learned to understand more about the society. Hardship, Pain, Hypocrisy, Appreciation, Acceptation, and most of all, LOVE. These are the things that we learn to understand as we grew up.  Eventually, we became more mature and think things out relevantly. 

Hardship. A strong word which can be really meaningful after going thru this phase of life. Obstacles faced in every challenge accepted. The world is such a cruel place. The society is not as good as it looks. Why? Because the obstacles that we face throughout our challenges are no other than the society itself.

Pain. A mark that stay and leave nothing but memories. Physical pain is the mark we get when we hurt ourself on/in any parts of our anatomy. Most of then can be treated but some of them are not as easy as we think is it. Emotional pain, that is a mark we get when we get hurt emotionally. The pain doesn't stop unless we can stop thinking about what manipulates it. Physical and emotional pain either way, eventually it will fade. 

Hypocrisy. It's what we live in. In this world, We all can talk the "talk". But how many of us really walk the "talk"? That's how much of a hypocrite we are. 

Appreciation. We never know we need something or even anything until we loose them. Learning to appreciate things brings a lot in life. Sometime less is more.

Acceptation. It's what we teenagers yearn for. Not only from friends and family but also from the society. Accepting us for the way we are somehow helps us to be on the right track. 

And lastly, Love. Love is pretty much the gift tht we give and take whenever we learn to appreciate and accept things the way they are. It takes time to grow but eventually it will be at its best.

To sum it up, I can say that life is merely a blank paper printed with plain template of colorless pictures. With Hardship, Pain, Hypocrisy, Appreciation, Acceptation, and LOVE, It colors the path and story of our life. The differences between a pile of plain white paper and a set of colorful origami papers is that the colorful ones are more interesting. By making it as an abstract in life, life is good when we're colored with experiences.

Cheers to life,

Charles Anthony Prudente

Make fun of those to make fun of us ;)

We dive into the pool of lies,
Not make a fool of ourselves,
But to hear all the jokes passed around ;)

Some are lies,
And some are truth,
Which will u believe?
Cuz what matters most,
Is how u judge it ;)

The Wish

Under the stars
Fingers crossed
As we look to the sky
We fly.

As we soar
Through the clouds
Hold my hand
And don't look down.

Wishing to stay here
Forever, with you
We glide higher
Full of opportunities.

Letting go of reality
Just you and me
Forgetting the world
And everything else.

As we fly
High in the sky
I realize
It's all a lie.

And we come crashing down
Falling into nothingness
Our wish, shattered
Coming to a close.

Reality coming back
Keeping us stuck
Just wanting to fly again
But being trapped.

Let Me Grow Up

You can't make decisions
You can't be right
You can't grow up
You're to dumb to fight
I know what's best
I know it all
Mom and dad
Just hit the wall

I can choose my life
I choose who
I want to be

mom and dad
say I'm not right
mom and dad say I can't fight
mom and dad show me the worst
mom and dad made me burst
I'm going to show them
how to fight.

mom and dad
I want you to
let me grow up
let me be free

mom and dad
I will show you
I'm not a mistake
I will show you I'm on the edge
mom dad no I made mistakes
mom dad can't take the pain.

I will show them
I am free
I am forever me!
mom and dad
I'm sorry to say
but I have to moved on
now I am me

My Truth

Deep breaths and pain inside,
Hard to tell the truth when there's so many lies!

Whispers of secrets in my ear,
Hoping that no one could hear.
And I'm crying actual tears.
I feel hurt, pressured and strained.
Everybody cant feel my type of pain.
And this might really sound lame.
But life aint nothing but a game.

Do you feel what I feel NO!
I wish I could let it all go.
But it really aint that easy.
Have you ever had to sit in the cold freezing.
Wanting to be awaken by a special healing.
Just let pain go freely.
Too bad nothing in this world is free.
Not even your freedom of speech.
So ill do like Martin Luther King.
Imma let freedom ring.
PEACE!

Who Am I?

I'm tired of being told to grow up,
When they know that I'm able
I'm sick of being called 'Punk',
Because that is being labelled

I don't know what to become,
I can't work hard at school
When I make a mistake or trip up,
Kids simply yell at me "FOOL!"

I try to find an answer,
Each and every other day
I really am in the need of help,
And I put myself in shame

It's frustrating not knowing ME,
For myself I'm a little shy
I need to figure this one out,
But tell me, who am I?

Nightmares Of The Past

Stop me from falling
Into the same sickening slumber
That always comes
After the sun slips away

The nightmares of the past
Come back to haunt me
And wont let me rest
Till my soul is dry and bare

It burns me to my core
And my heart is left in shards
When will I come out of
The cloud of fear that hovers round me

My mind is growing numb
To the whole world I'm in
And all my senses drowned
By memories of what scares me most

What Would You Do?

What do you do
when everything you say turns out wrong?

What do you do
when your family decides you are useless?

What do you do
when you have no place to run to?

What do you do
when love is just another word in the big book?

What do you do
when school is your only resort?

What do you do
when things like this rule your everyday life,
and there is nothing you can do about it?

What do you do?

Feeling Something

Have you ever held in pain to the point where it seemed like you didn't care?
you could've sworn you were crying,
but when you went to wipe tears away there was nothing there?
Going through life empty.
Just letting the world pass you by.
Numb to any feelings,
just wishing you could die.
See I feel like this daily.
so lost I don’t know what to feel.
When in fact I do feel pain, I cant believe that it’s real.
so as I lay my head down tonight,
I close my eyes and pray.
I pray that God will give me guidance & to maybe feel someday

The Man in the Morror

Who is that man?
Staring back at me
Is he a part of my past?
Or who I am destined to be?

And this wretched soul
Who stands before my eyes
When I am hurt deeply
Is it him or me that cries?

Do we share each other's thoughts?
Are we one and the same?
And when I harm others
Which one of us is too blame?

Does he see me as well?
Does he know my soul?
Does he cry when he sees
It is nothing more than a black hole?

Reflection against a reflection
Like brother against brother
But which one is me?
And which one is the other?

Dear YOU, you're pressuring me and u don't know it

Honestly speaking, i don't think I can make it in my pre-u program... Thing has been out of way recently... Being in form 6 has made me look not and more stupid and I'm pretty sure my family noticed me being more and more stupid, except not knowing that it's becuz of form 6... Society doesn't get along well with u... Whatever u did right, is wrong for others, and whatever wrong u did, is also wrong for others... Then whats the point of even trying? Well in my case, the society that I'm referring to is MY FAMILY!!! I mean seriously, what is it they want me to do that could impress them... What is it that they want from me to satisfy their needs... Im hoping that they could read this, cuz by talking to them, they would only cut me off and start hitting me with their words... Explanation? I don't think so!!! most of the time they think they know everything about what we teens are going thru... Honestly, who doesn't go thru a life of a teen? The only thing that differentiate them is what they have how thru... 

It hurts to the core

Sometimes, somethings are better off not knowing, and sometimes, someone is better off with out you. All you gotta do is to accept the fact, that things are at its best, when you're not around. Curiosity kills the cat. But what if, that matter you're curious about, brings nothing but pain and heartache, especially after knowing it? Don't you just wish that you can just turn back time and not listen to what was told?

You gotta learn to accept the fact. But the truth is just to hard to accept, too hard to absorb within you. Too painful to move on. Too heavy to take it with you. People look down to you, because of your past. But yet, your past is what describes what you are today.

You know that feeling? When you just feel like ending your life? You're currently having trust issues, due to the fact of what had happened before. You long to talk to someone, but yet, there's nobody there for you. Sharing the hows and whats in you'd mind is the only way of letting all the problems you faced, out of your mind. But yet, you don't have anyone to talk to, who's there for you. Heavenly Father, only you know how I really feel. You know how much I need help, you know that I'm in trouble, you know that I yearn to talk to someone. Please god. Please send me someone who I can talk to. Who I can trust. Who listens to my problems and bring me up again. Someone who's in the same page as me...

I'm just tired

Peer-2-Peer

"Blood is thicker than water" meaning that family will always be family no matter what. Bond between family is the best way of overcoming a matter. However, what if your family isnt bonded together? What if you have a broken family? Who will you turn to?

I might sound like an attention seeking bunch of freak in this post but this is how i express myself. i often count on my friends when my family isnt there for me. Despite knowing that my family supports me in everything i do, i just cant seem to feel them around me as much as I feel the support of my friends. but now? ther're all gone. They've moved on. They have new friends, and yet, im still here, trying my best to get back to them. I've tried my best in getting close with them again, but they avoid me. New Friends? Sure, but what are the chances? I've tried making new ones and yet, we dont seem to get along as well as I expected it to be.

I guess what i'm trying to say is that, i just wish i have someone to count on, someone who talks to me when i need someone to talk to, someone who i can share my problems with, someone who i can be myself with, someone who can always be honest with me. Lastly, someone who likes me being with them despite my foolishness and insanity.

Puzzled Life of a Youths

Is anything actually real? I mean, completely, unconditionally, just real? Life, Love, Hope... Or is it just a game we play in our heads, to keep us from sane. Life as we know it, doesn't go the way we planned it to be. We've done our best, to avoid obstacles, problems, and even matters which we know, that can affect us crucially. And yet, it still follows us. Eventually, it hits us hard. So hard, that even some of us takes time to heal from this excruciating midst of misery.

Do you know what is it like being downgraded? Being compared with someone better? Or maybe being the worst among the community? Despite knowing that you have reached the maximum limit of your effort. You yearn to be someone. Someone which you enjoy doing what they do best, just by being yourself. But yet nothing seems to convince you, that you have what it takes, to be that someone. Eventually, the existence of hesitation, of doing what you love most, is present. Due to the fact that you have no support from absolutely anyone, has dramatically ruined your confidence. Main reason is that, we have nothing to be confident upon.

The dice is in your hands. People placing bets on you. Expecting, that you could get what they want. Eventually, u have nothing to offer and they get the contrary of what they've been hoping for. That's when finger pointing starts. People starts turning their back on you. You have no other path to walk on, except the walk of shame. Thus, it crucially destroys your self-esteem. There's nothing you can do but to just resist the pain that runs in your body.

What would you do? What would you feel? How will you bare with this matter? And lastly, How would you feel, IF YOU WERE IN MY SHOE?

Lol

Should I or should I not?

Family Moments And Fun

Don't u just wist that things like this happens everyday :') let the pictures tell u the story.