The Wish

Under the stars
Fingers crossed
As we look to the sky
We fly.

As we soar
Through the clouds
Hold my hand
And don't look down.

Wishing to stay here
Forever, with you
We glide higher
Full of opportunities.

Letting go of reality
Just you and me
Forgetting the world
And everything else.

As we fly
High in the sky
I realize
It's all a lie.

And we come crashing down
Falling into nothingness
Our wish, shattered
Coming to a close.

Reality coming back
Keeping us stuck
Just wanting to fly again
But being trapped.

Let Me Grow Up

You can't make decisions
You can't be right
You can't grow up
You're to dumb to fight
I know what's best
I know it all
Mom and dad
Just hit the wall

I can choose my life
I choose who
I want to be

mom and dad
say I'm not right
mom and dad say I can't fight
mom and dad show me the worst
mom and dad made me burst
I'm going to show them
how to fight.

mom and dad
I want you to
let me grow up
let me be free

mom and dad
I will show you
I'm not a mistake
I will show you I'm on the edge
mom dad no I made mistakes
mom dad can't take the pain.

I will show them
I am free
I am forever me!
mom and dad
I'm sorry to say
but I have to moved on
now I am me

My Truth

Deep breaths and pain inside,
Hard to tell the truth when there's so many lies!

Whispers of secrets in my ear,
Hoping that no one could hear.
And I'm crying actual tears.
I feel hurt, pressured and strained.
Everybody cant feel my type of pain.
And this might really sound lame.
But life aint nothing but a game.

Do you feel what I feel NO!
I wish I could let it all go.
But it really aint that easy.
Have you ever had to sit in the cold freezing.
Wanting to be awaken by a special healing.
Just let pain go freely.
Too bad nothing in this world is free.
Not even your freedom of speech.
So ill do like Martin Luther King.
Imma let freedom ring.
PEACE!

Who Am I?

I'm tired of being told to grow up,
When they know that I'm able
I'm sick of being called 'Punk',
Because that is being labelled

I don't know what to become,
I can't work hard at school
When I make a mistake or trip up,
Kids simply yell at me "FOOL!"

I try to find an answer,
Each and every other day
I really am in the need of help,
And I put myself in shame

It's frustrating not knowing ME,
For myself I'm a little shy
I need to figure this one out,
But tell me, who am I?

Nightmares Of The Past

Stop me from falling
Into the same sickening slumber
That always comes
After the sun slips away

The nightmares of the past
Come back to haunt me
And wont let me rest
Till my soul is dry and bare

It burns me to my core
And my heart is left in shards
When will I come out of
The cloud of fear that hovers round me

My mind is growing numb
To the whole world I'm in
And all my senses drowned
By memories of what scares me most

What Would You Do?

What do you do
when everything you say turns out wrong?

What do you do
when your family decides you are useless?

What do you do
when you have no place to run to?

What do you do
when love is just another word in the big book?

What do you do
when school is your only resort?

What do you do
when things like this rule your everyday life,
and there is nothing you can do about it?

What do you do?

Feeling Something

Have you ever held in pain to the point where it seemed like you didn't care?
you could've sworn you were crying,
but when you went to wipe tears away there was nothing there?
Going through life empty.
Just letting the world pass you by.
Numb to any feelings,
just wishing you could die.
See I feel like this daily.
so lost I don’t know what to feel.
When in fact I do feel pain, I cant believe that it’s real.
so as I lay my head down tonight,
I close my eyes and pray.
I pray that God will give me guidance & to maybe feel someday

The Man in the Morror

Who is that man?
Staring back at me
Is he a part of my past?
Or who I am destined to be?

And this wretched soul
Who stands before my eyes
When I am hurt deeply
Is it him or me that cries?

Do we share each other's thoughts?
Are we one and the same?
And when I harm others
Which one of us is too blame?

Does he see me as well?
Does he know my soul?
Does he cry when he sees
It is nothing more than a black hole?

Reflection against a reflection
Like brother against brother
But which one is me?
And which one is the other?

Dear YOU, you're pressuring me and u don't know it

Honestly speaking, i don't think I can make it in my pre-u program... Thing has been out of way recently... Being in form 6 has made me look not and more stupid and I'm pretty sure my family noticed me being more and more stupid, except not knowing that it's becuz of form 6... Society doesn't get along well with u... Whatever u did right, is wrong for others, and whatever wrong u did, is also wrong for others... Then whats the point of even trying? Well in my case, the society that I'm referring to is MY FAMILY!!! I mean seriously, what is it they want me to do that could impress them... What is it that they want from me to satisfy their needs... Im hoping that they could read this, cuz by talking to them, they would only cut me off and start hitting me with their words... Explanation? I don't think so!!! most of the time they think they know everything about what we teens are going thru... Honestly, who doesn't go thru a life of a teen? The only thing that differentiate them is what they have how thru... 

It hurts to the core

Sometimes, somethings are better off not knowing, and sometimes, someone is better off with out you. All you gotta do is to accept the fact, that things are at its best, when you're not around. Curiosity kills the cat. But what if, that matter you're curious about, brings nothing but pain and heartache, especially after knowing it? Don't you just wish that you can just turn back time and not listen to what was told?

You gotta learn to accept the fact. But the truth is just to hard to accept, too hard to absorb within you. Too painful to move on. Too heavy to take it with you. People look down to you, because of your past. But yet, your past is what describes what you are today.

You know that feeling? When you just feel like ending your life? You're currently having trust issues, due to the fact of what had happened before. You long to talk to someone, but yet, there's nobody there for you. Sharing the hows and whats in you'd mind is the only way of letting all the problems you faced, out of your mind. But yet, you don't have anyone to talk to, who's there for you. Heavenly Father, only you know how I really feel. You know how much I need help, you know that I'm in trouble, you know that I yearn to talk to someone. Please god. Please send me someone who I can talk to. Who I can trust. Who listens to my problems and bring me up again. Someone who's in the same page as me...